I am feeling a lot better these past two weeks. I can finish my sentences without pause and walk without running out of breath. Doing nothing, relaxing the mind, and all your well-wishes helped a lot. And the medications, of course.
Thank you very much for your thoughtfulness. You were all so kind. It was overwhelming. I did not expect that. And the tiny house mail I received from Janis was the loveliest surprise. Many thanks! Much appreciated. I loved it and it made me feel cared for. Blog friends are the best. How can one not get better?
Mainly, I wrote this post to vent and let go of the negativity that threatens to consume me. You responded with so much love and good energy to put a smile on my face and banish the stresses away. It did not matter that we are separated by screens and kilometers of ocean – the positivity reached me. Thank you for all the encouragement and support!
My uncle also helped me. He possesses precious knowledge of natural healing from the indigenous people of The Philippines, the Aetas. These pastes, barks, and roots have been a constant part of my life and I always marveled at the magic of plants and how generous they are to us.
During my dark times, I was hospitalized every six weeks because my lung condition was out of control. Along with the litany of medications from my pulmonologist, my uncle gave me a teaspoon of juice extracted from a paste of ikmo or piper betle and other herbs. It tasted like death but worked as an anti-asthmatic agent. I took the same concoction last week and my lung situation calmed down.
Of course, I am still taking my prescriptions and taking it easy. The palpitations remain but I am no longer swollen from scalp to toe, which I am thankful for. It is so painful to be a balloon ripe to burst.
My worries have lessened, too. It was incredibly bad for me before but it does not mean it will happen again. I must trust my body and let it do what it needs to do. I still get waves of fear from time to time but I do not cling to it. There is no amount of worry that can stop what is meant to happen.
And so I just try to relax and breathe and do the best I can. I cannot thank you enough for going through this with me. At least, to me it feels that way. Thank you for the inspiration, kindness, and generosity. I will make sure to pass on the goodness to honor all of you.